“We all want to break our orbits, float like a satellite gone wild in space, run the risk of disintegration. We all want to take our lives in our own hands and hurl them out among the stars.” ~David Bottoms
As I find myself now in mid December, and on the cusp of a brand new year, I feel myself straddling the old and the new, what has been and what is yet to come, and the realization hits me that this moment is indeed precious and unique—poignant—and deserves to be savored and fully tasted while it is here.
Time goes by so fast that it feels a bit like a wind that blows through my very being that I am unable to touch let alone grasp, though I try.
And it seems like just yesterday I was silently wondering to myself, “Where will I be at this time next year?”, but that was already a year ago, and now, here I am, already standing in the “next year”, with some fairly substantial changes coming my way in the weeks ahead.
The beauty of life...
My heart is full when I consider the lessons I have learned over the years about who I am, what I am made of, what my desires are, and what I have to offer...
I love that nothing stays the same.
It is in moments like this that I realize the importance of just breathing—of standing still, closing my eyes for a moment or two, and inhaling deliberately and slowly, then releasing my breath once again.
It is in moments like this that I look back and examine the flavors of all that has been so that I may eventually add to them the flavors of what will come, and mix the two to create something new and vital, something that is alive and fruitful.
It is in moments like this that I want to savor where I stand, appreciate where I have been, and look forward to where I long to go as I continue to create my life using what my Creator has given me to work with, hopefully multiplying the gifts in an effort to expand and have a rich, meaningful life.
And it is in moments like this that I long for more—more out of the work that I do, more out of the roles that I inhabit, more out of the relationships that I enjoy with others and my Creator, more out of my daily endeavors, more out of myself.
My heart is full when I consider the lessons I have learned over the years about who I am, what I am made of, what my desires are, and what I have to offer; and I look forward to learning the lessons that are yet to come.
I am grateful to be in a more conscious state, a state that does not allow me to be satisfied with simply floating along in a deceptive haze of comfort, but that implores me to check my inner world to make sure it is in alignment with achieving my purpose.
There is both a hint of sweet sorrow and of heaping dash of enthusiasm and hope in saying goodbye to what has been, while saying hello to what is next in life, in this precious and delicate moment of stepping off of the familiar plateau that I have been on and onto the next one slightly above it.
There is both a nervousness and a thrill as this year begins to come to a close and the next one boldly initiates its entrance.
And savoring this moment offers an opportunity for me to experience a deep respect for the gravity of what my hopes and desires can potentially yield.
Life is a mystery, and I do not know for certain what my days ahead hold...
But respecting where I currently stand allows for a deeper and richer understanding of my journey so far, and for an appreciation for the possibilities of where my journey will take me tomorrow.
There is newness around the corner, and potential for some amazing things.
And as I sit and write this, knowing all of that, I cannot help but wonder...
Where will I be a year from now?
Taste what's good and pass it on.